"Opening To Receive Love"
Sharing a Man's Perspective & Experience of transcending Fear, Hatred and Self Punishment.
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
Friday, 21 October 2011
How Do you Stop Mind?
Be Moved to Infinity
Without the Benefit of Knowledge
God is not the blue
pearl, your wife's body nor any other experience.
ADI DA SAMRAJ: The feeling self is the conscious
self, the mental self, the thinking self. Our attention should be free through
feeling. It should be simple attention. But our attention is wrapped up in
thought, obsessive thinking. Our feeling is wrapped up in reactive feelings,
mediocre and contracted emotional states. Our body is wrapped up in all kinds
of kinks and knots, so that our actions are nonsense. They are limitations and
dramatizations.
If you are expressed as feeling
without obstruction, mind becomes attention, but through feeling, not through
obsessive thought. If you feel to Infinity, you do not think. The mind
naturally comes to rest. But if you are obstructed in your feeling, and your
try to stop thoughts like a yogi, it does not work very well. And if it did
work, you would just become blank, dull, dead.
The only reason for
obsessive, continuous thinking is that the feeling core is collapsed,
and thus all the parts
race off in their functional independence.
So we think and think
and think and think and think and think.
Our constant thinking
never stops.
Even if we lose consciousness for a
while, as soon as we are conscious again we start thinking. We cannot stop it.
After a while we become obsessed with stopping it. How do we stop it? The one
who wants to stop it is the feelingless nature. If it understands its own
dilemma and returns to feeling, then thought is forgotten, as in sleep, but the
being is not unconscious, not dull.
Through feeling, the being becomes
sympathetic to the point of Radiance. It perceives the all-pervading Bliss as
itself and gives itself up to Infinity. Even the body changes. All the
functions are reintegrated, returned to one another, and the body, piece by
piece, becomes light, literally. It becomes pure energy, even to the point of
sudden disappearance.
There have been a number of
historical cases of individuals in a high state of emotional transcendence, who
have suddenly disappeared on the spot, vanished, gone up in a flash of light.
They are the evidence of our bodily Condition. But even before such an event as
transfiguration, there are other sublime changes that occur in the body itself.
It becomes radiant, blooming, pervaded by Bliss. It may appear to be surrounded
by light.
The, ego cannot effect
such a transformation,
because the ego is the
collapse of feeling-attention,
the collapse of
Radiance, the contraction of energy.
Only when we are yielded to Infinity
does this transfiguration begin. And it begins in a relatively ordinary way.
Our relations improve, our functional life improves in the loving sense, and
psychic dimensions of the body-being begin to open. Visions and other phenomena
may arise, but they all vanish in the face of the Heart's comprehension, until
there is nothing to hold onto. There is simply inclusion in Bliss.
There is no archetype in the mind by
which to know that Destiny. It is not a matter of knowledge. All knowledge is a
figure, a contraction, a modification. We are moved to Infinity without the
benefit of knowledge. We must pass beyond the demand of knowledge, which is
simply another way of getting loved, getting attention from without,
surrounding ourselves with consolations. We must pass beyond knowledge by
presuming Ignorance to be our Condition, which is the same as love, as
Radiance.
The seventh or ultimate stage of
life is the bloom of that Reality, in which even the body is sacrificed to
Infinity and transfigured through Bliss. The ultimate Realization is simply a
maturing of Love. The old saying "God is Love" is absolute Truth. God
is not the blue pearl nor your wife's body nor any other experience. Only the
devotee realizes the secret.
The devotee is
sacrificed upon the secret.
Wednesday, 12 October 2011
A devotion to my beloved!
Why Love Hurts .......by Osho
He/She knows only himself. And how much can he know himself if he has not known the other, because only the other can function as a mirror?
You will never know yourself without knowing the other. Love is very fundamental for self-knowledge too. The person who has not known the other in deep love, in intense passion, in utter ecstasy, will not be able to know who he is, because he will not have the mirror to see his own reflection.
My whole approach here is that of love. I teach only love and only love and nothing else.
You can forget about God’ that is just an empty word.
You can forget about prayers because they are only rituals imposed by others on you. Love is the natural prayer, not imposed by anybody. You are born with it.
Love is the true God — not the God of theologians, but the God of Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, the God of the Sufis. Love is a tariqa, a method, to kill you as a separate individual and to help you become the infinite.
Disappear as a dewdrop and become the ocean, but you will have to pass through the door of love.
Love is painful because it creates
the way for bliss. Love is painful because it transforms. Love is mutation.
Each transformation is going to be painful because the old has to be left for
the new. The old is familiar, secure, safe, the new is absolutely unknown. You
will be moving in an uncharted ocean. You cannot use your mind with the new’
with the old, the mind is skillful. The mind can function only with the old’
with the new, the mind is utterly useless.
Hence, fear arises, and leaving the old, comfortable,
safe world, the world of convenience, pain arises. It is the same pain that the
child feels when he comes out of the womb of the mother. It is the same pain
that the bird feels when he comes out of the egg. It is the same pain that the
bird will feel when he will try for the first time to be on the wing.
The fear of the unknown, and the security of the known,
the insecurity of the unknown, the unpredictability of the unknown, makes one
very much frightened.
And because the transformation is going to be from the
self towards a state of no-self, agony is very deep. But you Cannot have
ecstasy without going through agony. If the gold wants to be purified, it has
to pass through fire. Love is fire.
It is because of the pain of love, millions of people
live a loveless life. They too suffer, and their suffering is futile. To suffer
in love is not to suffer in vain. To suffer in love is creative’ it takes you
to higher levels of consciousness. To suffer without love is utterly a waste’
it leads you nowhere, it keeps you moving in the same vicious circle. The man/women who is without love is narcissistic, he is
closed.
He/She knows only himself. And how much can he know himself if he has not known the other, because only the other can function as a mirror?
You will never know yourself without knowing the other. Love is very fundamental for self-knowledge too. The person who has not known the other in deep love, in intense passion, in utter ecstasy, will not be able to know who he is, because he will not have the mirror to see his own reflection.
Relationship is a mirror, and the purer the love is,
the higher the love is, the better the mirror, the cleaner the mirror. But the
higher love needs that you should be open. The higher love needs you to be
vulnerable. You have to drop your armor’ that is painful. You have not to be
constantly on guard. You have to drop the calculating mind. You have to risk.
You have to live dangerously. The other can hurt you’ that is the fear in being
vulnerable. The other can reject you’ that is the fear in being in love.
The reflection that you will find in the other of your
own self may be ugly’ that is the anxiety. Avoid the mirror. But by avoiding
the mirror you are not going to become beautiful. By avoiding the situation you
are not going to grow either. The challenge has to be taken.
One has to go into love. That is the first step towards
God, and it cannot be bypassed. Those who try to bypass the step of love will
never reach God.
That is absolutely necessary because you become aware of your
totality only when you are provoked by the presence of the other, when your
presence is enhanced by the presence of the other, when you are brought out of
your narcissistic, closed world under the open sky.
Love is an open sky. To be in love is to be on the
wing. But certainly, the unbounded sky creates fear.
And to drop the ego is very painful because we have
been taught to cultivate the ego. We think the ego is our only treasure.
We
have been protecting it, we have been decorating it, we have been continuously
polishing it, and when love knocks on the door, all that is needed to fall in
love is to put aside the ego’ certainly it is painful. It is your whole life’s
work, it is all that you have created — this ugly ego, this idea that “I am
separate from existence. ”
This idea is ugly because it is untrue. This idea is
illusory, but our society exists, is based on this idea that each person is a
person, not a presence.
The truth is that there is no person at all in the
world’ there is only presence. You are not — not as an ego, separate from the
whole. You are part of the whole. The whole penetrates you, the whole breathes
in you, pulsates in you, the whole is your life.
Love gives you the first experience of being in tune
with something that is not your ego. Love gives you the first lesson that you
can fall into harmony with someone who has never been part of your ego.
If you
can be in harmony with a woman, if you can be in harmony with a friend, with a
man, if you can be in harmony with your child or with your mother, why can’t
you be in harmony with all human beings?
And if to be in harmony with a single
person gives such joy, what will be the outcome if you are in harmony with all
human beings? And if you can be in harmony with all human beings, why can’t you
be in harmony with animals and birds and trees? Then one step leads to another.
Love is a ladder. It starts with one person, it ends
with the totality. Love is the beginning, God is the end. To be afraid of love,
to be afraid of the growing pains of love, is to remain enclosed in a dark
cell.
Modern man is living in a dark cell’ it is
narcissistic. Narcissism is the greatest obsession of the modern mind.
And then there are problems, problems which are
meaningless. There are problems which are creative because they lead you to
higher awareness. There are problems which lead you nowhere’ they simply keep
you tethered, they simply keep you in your old mess.
Love creates problems. You can avoid those problems by
avoiding love. But those are very essential problems! They have to be faced,
encountered’ they have to be lived and gone through and gone beyond. And to go
beyond, the way is through. Love is the only real thing worth doing. All else
is secondary. If it helps love, it is good. All else is just a means, love is
the end. So whatsoever the pain, go into love.
If you don’t go into love, as many people have
decided, then you are stuck with yourself. Then your life is not a pilgrimage,
then your life is not a river going to the ocean’ your life is a stagnant pool,
dirty, and soon there will be nothing but dirt and mud. To keep clean, one
needs to keep flowing. A river remains clean because it goes on flowing. Flow
is the process of remaining continuously virgin.
A lover remains a virgin. All lovers are virgin. The
people who don’t love cannot remain virgin’ they become dormant, stagnant’ they
start stinking sooner or later — and sooner than later — because they have
nowhere to go. Their life is dead.
That’s where modern man finds himself, and because of
this, all kinds of neuroses, all kinds of madnesses, have become rampant.
Psychological illness has taken epidemic proportions. It is no more that a few
individuals are psychologically ill’ the reality is the whole earth has become
a madhouse.
The whole of humanity is suffering from a kind of neurosis.
And that neurosis is coming from your narcissistic
stagnancy. Everyone is stuck with one’s own illusion of having a separate self’
then people go mad. And this madness is meaningless, unproductive, uncreative.
Or people start committing suicide. Those suicides are also unproductive,
uncreative.
You may not commit suicide by taking poison or jumping
from a cliff or by shooting yourself, but you can commit a suicide which is a
very slow process, and that’s what happens. Very few people commit suicide
suddenly. Others have decided for a slow suicide’ gradually, slowly, slowly
they die. But almost, the tendency to be suicidal has become universal.
This is no way to live, and the reason, the
fundamental reason, is we have forgotten the language of love. We are no more
courageous enough to go into that adventure called love.
Hence people are interested in sex, because sex is not
risky.
It is momentary, you don’t get involved. Love is involvement’ it is commitment. It is not momentary. Once it takes roots, it can be forever. It can be a lifelong involvement. Love needs intimacy, and only when you are intimate does the other become a mirror. When you meet sexually with a woman or a man, you have not met at all’ in fact, you avoided the soul of the other person. You just used the body and escaped, and the other used your body and escaped. You never became intimate enough to reveal each other’s original faces.
It is momentary, you don’t get involved. Love is involvement’ it is commitment. It is not momentary. Once it takes roots, it can be forever. It can be a lifelong involvement. Love needs intimacy, and only when you are intimate does the other become a mirror. When you meet sexually with a woman or a man, you have not met at all’ in fact, you avoided the soul of the other person. You just used the body and escaped, and the other used your body and escaped. You never became intimate enough to reveal each other’s original faces.
It is painful, but don’t avoid it. If you avoid it you
have avoided the greatest opportunity to grow. Go into it, suffer love, because
through the suffering comes great ecstasy.
Yes, there is agony, but out of the agony, ecstasy is born. Yes, you will have to die as an ego, but if you can die as an ego, you will be born as God, as a Buddha. And love will give you the first tongue-tip-taste of Tao, of Sufism, of Zen. Love will give you the first proof that God is, that life is not meaningless.
Yes, there is agony, but out of the agony, ecstasy is born. Yes, you will have to die as an ego, but if you can die as an ego, you will be born as God, as a Buddha. And love will give you the first tongue-tip-taste of Tao, of Sufism, of Zen. Love will give you the first proof that God is, that life is not meaningless.
The people who say life is meaningless are the people
who have not known love. All that they are saying is that their life has missed
love.
Let there be pain, let there be suffering. Go through
the dark night, and you will reach to a beautiful sunrise. It is only in the
womb of the dark night that the sun evolves. It is only through the dark night
that the morning comes.
My whole approach here is that of love. I teach only love and only love and nothing else.
You can forget about God’ that is just an empty word.
You can forget about prayers because they are only rituals imposed by others on you. Love is the natural prayer, not imposed by anybody. You are born with it.
Love is the true God — not the God of theologians, but the God of Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, the God of the Sufis. Love is a tariqa, a method, to kill you as a separate individual and to help you become the infinite.
Disappear as a dewdrop and become the ocean, but you will have to pass through the door of love.
And certainly when one starts disappearing like a
dewdrop, and one has lived long as a dewdrop, it hurts, because one has been
thinking, “I am this, and now this is going. I am dying. ” You are not dying,
but only an illusion is dying. You have become identified with the illusion,
true, but the illusion is still an illusion. And only when the illusion is gone
will you be able to see who you are. And that revelation brings you to the
ultimate peak of joy, bliss, celebration.
Friday, 7 October 2011
Suffering is Simply Misunderstanding!
The Great Law of Life is the disposition of
Surrender. The Surrendered Self is the Blissful, Joyful & humorous Self,
yet to come to the place of absolute surrender requires Self Understanding.
Self Understanding spontaneously releases
all misunderstanding, all suffering.
Self Understanding when realized
understands that all desires, wants, cravings & expectations and ALL
seeking Experiences for Experience sake is utterly and totally unfulfilling,
unsatisfying, and particularly revolting.
In my misunderstanding,
I thought, I lived, I believed wholeheartedly that my desiring life was/is
going to make me happy. BUT INSTEAD, I
have encountered the Crisis, the turning point. I have discovered that Desire
was/is running me and driving me into the grave and nailing the nails into the
coffin. But that’s not the end of my desiring life either. It is resurrected
again and I am reborn into a similar type of Being with the same type of disposition
to do it all over again and again.
I am insane, my desires are insane, the
world and its attractions and aversions are insane. Is there anyone out there?
But Thank God for God and those that have
Realized God. WE have friends in High Places who are serving our Awakening. We
have a relationship with them and they are only interested in serving our
Wholeness, they are not serving our egoic desires, needs and wants. As
Consciousness becomes Conscious of itself, the realization is that God is not
seeking experiences for experience sake. Consciousness is releasing itself from
its experiences in order that Life and the Earth awakens to its Eternal and Immortal Nature. That which is unborn, unchanging and the very
Source of All Experience.
As Jesus said, repent, you are sinning, you
are missing the mark, you are still seeking experiences, you are misunderstood,
TURN to God, turn to your Higher Self, Turn to those that have realized God.
Gather in a community of like minded beings, call on ME, and I will answer you.
I/we will help you UNDERSTAND who you are!
Does all this mean that I will never make
love with my Beloved again, or I will never eat chocolate, or drink red wine
ever again. No, it does not, what it means is I won’t NEED those things to make
me feel good anymore. I don't need those experiences to fulfill. me. I'm already Happy, before any of these things, before any
of these experiences. I am now liberated to simply allow whatever arises in life to express
itself through me as me in total innocence and mystery. Thank you Lord,
Halleluyah and praise the Lord.
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